I never know anymore where to put which photos/posts. Blogging has me so confused. Or maybe it’s just the way I am. I felt just as confused at DSW shoes the other day. I had a gift card (otherwise I wouldn’t have been there) and only a sleeping baby with me and no particular need for a pair of shoes and I was completely overwhelmed. I looked at the flip flops – cheap ( I could walk out of there without spending any money at all) and good for summer, but I already have two good pairs. I looked at dress shoes for work, but I recently bought a pair of nice dress shoes (the first pair I’ve bought in seven years) and they hadn’t really updated the selection. I looked at the sexy sandals and really wanted to buy a knock-out pair of platform sandals with deep brown red patent leather straps, but am I really a sexy sandal kind of gal these days? I don’t know. My dry cracked heals and unkempt toenails tell me not. The converse were really cute, but I don’t have any jeans that fit me right now, and what else would I wear them with? I finally wandered back to the clearance section and found these cute brown and pink Keen-esque sandals by J-41 and wound up buying them – mostly because I had been in the store for more than an hour and when was I ever going to get that kind of time for a shoe store again? Only to get them home and decide that they are a little too big and I have to take them back.
What was my point? oh yeah, I get confused easily and think about things too much. Here I was having an identity crisis in the DSW shoe store. Am I a Keen girl or do I really want the strappy platform sandals? Do I need practical flip-flops I can afford, or do I splurge and get the dressy work shoes? God, I don’t know. And I have no idea what in the hell we’re going to do for school around here next year. Or rather, I’m pretty sure I know what we’re doing and just can’t bring myself to say it out loud. Or in writing. Because how on earth can I mother my young kids, work a part to full time job from home (without any childcare for the baby mind you) and homeschool both older girls? I just can’t do it. Lately I have felt like I am being drawn and quartered and plagued by guilt – when I’m with the kids that I should be working and when I’m working that I should be with the kids. Aaaaaaaarrrghhhh!
On top of all that, we’ve had a really busy schedule anyway. Patrick had a fantastic show at Dulce, we had a lovely visit with first my dad
… and then Doug
Scout turned three,
and there were other birthday parties Twilight obsessions and school field trips and Mother’s Day tea’s and soldering projects and charm swaps and all sorts of other craziness that I felt like I had to fit in. Oh, and we might be buying a new house and moving this summer. Because, you know, things aren’t busy enough.
